Heartcry

Ministry is my life, you take that away I will be left with nothing.
You take God away, there will be none of me left.

End of today..

Sunday is coming to end. Rested a lot today and played lots of guitar. Cell kit done and managed to clear some online work. Will leave the rest for tomorrow. Gotta get started on Rhema workshop and studying soon!

Choosing the Important stuff over Excitment

Anyway I have listed out the things that I need to do today which includes preparing for cell tomorrow and preparation for the workshop at Rhema. There’s also a list of business stuff that I need to do or rather like to do. On this little computerized notepad I actually placed business work above ministry work (categorized them into 2)

Oh well I decided to change it around and when I placed ministry work written above business, somehow there’s this priority feeling for ministry. And it sure is working. I suddenly feel the motivation to get the important things done first which is ministry, business can be done later. So it’s combating between doing what’s important over what’s exciting. Cell kits are fun too just that there are times when business seems so much fun as well.

Okay working on cell kit now Lord, 1 more hour and it’s lunch time :D

Lovely! Today is a Beautiful Sunday!

Sundays are great days! :D I rest a lot on Sundays.

This morning was a good time spent with God. The serenity was still and I know God is there. “Be still and know that I am God”, indeed God is there in the stillness!

Was reading on Proverb 23:12 - 35 and it starts with applying my heart to instruction and your ears to words of knowledge. This whole entire passage talks simply about listening to our parents. It speaks to both parents and children. v13-14 - Parents, “do not withhold discipline from a child; if you punish him with the rod, he will not die. Punish him with the rod and save his soul from death.”

To the child, he says v22 - “Listen to your father, and do not despise your mother when she is old.” In v19-20 it says - “Listen, my son, and be wise, and keep your heart on the right path. Do not join the..drunkards..gluttons…”

Through all these years of growing up, my parents have always been very protective over me; nagging, disciplining, scolding me in which many a times in ways that I do not like. Today this passage shed some light on the purpose of of them doing all these. It is true that everyone needs to be taught and disciplined for we by human nature are naturally bad and no one needs to teach us to do bad stuff.

If my parents had not stepped in to discipline me and had spared the rod, I guess I would be living a godless and sinful life right now - one that is without hope.

As thanksgiving, God thank you for giving me Dad and Mum as guardians over me, training me in righteousness. I can’t choose my parents but I can choose to love and accept those you have placed over me. Thank you Lord! Amen!

Sleeping before 12..

Gah time flies! There’s only 25 mins more before I have to get to bed by order of parents.

Alright I did my own bible study today on Hebrews 4 which I will be posting about it tomorrow. Met up with Uncle Siew Chong tonight, asked me out for a chat. Had a good chat with him. Time to buck up!

Today was pretty ok though I din do much in the day.  Tomorrow is Monday, school’s back. I guess I better turn in early tonight so I will have the strength to go through the week. Will be back tomorrow to update more of my learning today. God Bless!

After Emceeing.

Yesterday’s emceeing went pretty alright. Worship ended with a high closing which was good. There are still a lot of improvements that can be made such as getting the people to the center of front, coming in during the middle of the worship from transition of one song to another.

Have seen great emcees done that very well and the worship dynamics just went up. However if done poorly, it could be bad like a break in dynamics.

It’s 3pm right here, gonna spend the next 1 hour sorting out some client’s site before thinking of something meaningful to do, perhaps immersing myself deep into the Word of God which I have not really done for quite some time.

Be back later..

Emceeing Today

Just in another 4 hours time I will be emceeing in G2 Young Adult Service. I haven’t done emceeing for about 5 months now ever since the last time when I emcee for both YA services in a row.

Honestly I am facing quite an array of emotions right now. Part of it comes from business. Will be blogging more about that part later tonight. Am having flu and cough right now as well, I pray Lord that you would use me for your glory in the service later as my health isn’t to the best condition but with you Lord all things are possible, Amen!

I haven’t blog for awhile now. Everything seems to be more or less sorted now for cell and family issues. The only one that’s left now is the online business. I started out on it 5 months ago with the intention to earn and pay for my overdue mission pledges. Along the way the motives changed and it now became a thrill to do online business as it was fun which gave me relief in my times of sorrow. It felt thrilling to be doing well on online business with excitement of making more than adults.

But everything is so unexpected and unforeseen. Anything could happen in the online weber sphere where revenue could easily plunge and things go bust. Time and again, situations have brought me to my knees before you acknowledging you Lord as Sovereign over all these things.

I miss you Lord..come back to me please..

The benefits of loyal friendship..

Was reading from 1 Samuel 18:1, 3-4 of how Jonathan loved David with his own soul.

V4 - “And Jonathan stripped himself of the robe that was on him and gave it to David, and his armor, and even his sword and his bow and his belt.”

Ever wondered what true and loyal friendship is? It is giving myself to the person, staying through with the person amidst the storms in our lives even to the depth of laying down one’s life for a friend.

That was what Jonathan did for David. Notice the part that says in 1 Sam 18:1 - “As soon as he had finished speaking with Saul, the soul of Jonathan was knit to the soul of Davie, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul.” Such great loyalty!  Their friendship shows the essence of loyalty even when external circumstances obstructed them.

David at that point was going through a hard time running away from Saul, King of Israel then. I am pretty sure David had a yearning for deep friendships, with someone he could trust deeply. If it hasn’t been for Jonathan who gave himself to lift David up, David could have struggled a lot more than where the passage ends.

As I look over the past year, Joseph and I have been meeting up every week for accountability. There are times we couldn’t meet due to busyness but that’s when we feel the need to meet up even more.

Each week I spend with Jo gives me motivation to go on in my walk with God and ministry specifically. I thank God for Jo. I remember we started out meeting with him teaching me some Maths in school and he started sharing some deep parts of his life. That was when we connected, however it took commitment to meet up regularly.

I remember the times we worship God together just us alone. When we share deep secrets with one another that no one else knew besides God ;)  Those are great times that we are still going through even today. Thank you Lord for such a dear friend!

p.s. I would love to see more and more young adults and youths having loyal friendships :)

Mid-Semester Test coming up..

Next Monday 04 November to Wednesday would be the MST.

Trying to study Java programming lang, spent hours downloading the programming platform software and somehow each of them don’t seem to work..

Finally got one to work. Really wanted to post about my daily devotions here. Time is short for me tonight, will post daily devotion when am free-er.

God give me the strength to go on for you, let a humble and contrite heart be placed before you on the altar.

How to deal with disappointment in life

Pastor Kieran will be preaching on a 5 part series titled ‘Managing Your Emotions’ for the month of October and November 2007.

Young Adult Service 20th October 2007

Adapted from Sermon Notes
Series Part 1 - How to deal with disappointment in life

Disappointment is one emotion that we face regularly. The life of Moses illustrates 3 facts of life that we need to be prepared for.

1) Great Successes Can Be Followed By Failure

“Then Moses led Israel from the Red Sea and they went into the Desert of Shur. For three days they traveled in the desert without finding water. When they came to marah, they could not drink its water because it was bitter.” Exodus 15 v. 22-23

The Israelites were disappointed upon reaching Marah only to find bitter water.

What is the “Marah” in your life?

3 Sources of Disappointment
- Things disappoint us
- Events Disappoint us
- People Disappoint us

3 Reasons for Disappointment

- Unmet Expectations
- Unpleasant Experiences
- Unfulfilled Desire

Pastor Kieran focused in to talk about people as one source of disappointment. One saying that I have learned from my mum is “Don’t place your hope on people, be it pastors, leaders, layman, anyone for men will surely fail and disappoint you. But place your hope on God who will never fail or disappoint you.” I hold this principle in my life, very true indeed as it speaks. I have faced disappointment and hurts from people especially those closest to me over time.

Why does God lead us to “Marah’s” in our life? Vs. 24-25

“Then the people turned against Moses..so Moses cried out to the Lord..and there the Lord tested them of their faithfulness to Him”
God allows disappointments in our lives to test if we remain faithful in Him.

Don’t keep thinking about your hurts or disappointments as it will lead to resentment and bitterness. Rather give thanks in all circumstances - 1st Thess 5:17

2) Great Services Can be Followed By Great Forgetfulness
“So the people grumbled against Moses, saying, “What are we to drink?” V24

What Not To Do With Disappointment
a. Don’t Curse it!
Don’t strike back when you are disappointed with someone.

“Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse!” Romans 12:14
Sometimes after being disappointed with someone, we may feel like flaring up our anger on that person making him feel like he’s a failure/guilty/useless. We may feel angry but don’t keep your anger when the sun goes down as it is written or anger will give a foothold to the devil.

Yet many a times we forget the good things that the person could have done for us before. Like our parents, cell leaders, friends. I have come to acknowledge that even though at times my parents may irritate me but after all they brought me up through all these years. All the years of feeding, disciplining, taking care of isn’t easy at all. Honestly I feel being a cell leader isn’t easy at all than I used to think it was. I asked my cell mate once before, and he said it’s a duty of a cell leader to take care of his flock. True enough but it’s just sad that a lot of times the efforts of hard labor put into the plow isn’t much appreciated. Thank God there’s another promise of the bible..

“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. 10Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers.” - Gal 6:9-10

When people hurt you, don’t curse it, don’t seek to hurt the person back.

b. Don’t Rehearse it
“He who covers over an offense promotes love, but whoever repeats the matter separates close friends.” - Prov 17:9

c. Don’t Nurse it
Each time we dwell our thoughts on the hurt, we are nursing it into bitterness and angrier we become.

“Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold.” Eph 4:26-27

“Get rid of all bitterness…anger, and slander, along with every form of malice.” Eph 4:31

What To Do With Disappointment

a. You Disperse it
“Then Moses cried out to the Lord…” Exo 15:25

Moses was hurt and criticized by his people often but he did not gossip about them to anybody not even to Joshua.

How to disperse it? “Cast all your cares on Him, because He cares for you” 1 Peter 5:7

b. Let God Reverse It -> the disappointment
Joseph said, “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good, to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.” Gen v27

A child may be abused since young, does God approve it? No. Does God allow it? Well if he didn’t it wouldn’t happen :)
Likewise for disappointments. God has a greater plan beyond these obstacles.

3) Great Shortages Can Be Followed by Great Fullness
“Then they came to Elim, where there were twelve springs and seventy palm trees and they camped there near the water.” V27

The passage above did not say God brought them to Elim! But they came to Elim. They kept on going and persevering.

How far is Elim from Marah?
Not far..

How do you get from Marah to Elim?
Keep going, keep trusting God.

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Rom 8:28

Conclusion:

1) When I am discouraged or disappointed, don’t wallow in self pity but cry it out to the Lord.
2) Don’t give up and die in the desert. Keep at it!